How I'd Kill

by Cowboy Malfoy

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I never intended to write this song. I sang 7 words and posted it. Over 10 million views across TikTok and Instagram and an impatient audience of 100,000 followers. 1000s of duets/stitches to audio. It then became my mission to live up to, and exceed these expectations. I combined my experience of writing tango, arranging an orchestra, bossanova rhythms, the waltz, and a love for Jeff Buckley to create something I know to be truly unique and exciting.

lyrics

How i’d kill
to see you again

Love’s a game
I played the fool
I was wasted
on your perfume
Yeah you turned me into a mess
But I must confess
That I’ve never felt so alive

Well that’s a lesson learned
(You showed me love)
No, you taught me how to hurt
Was it worth it? No

Cause now I’m coast to coast alone I roam
searching for solace and comfort
and I don’t know if I can carry on

They called me crazy
and they’re right

I had a multitude of sickly dispositions
you didn’t mind

Instead you taught me how to dance
but not alone
If love is a game
then I only played
to lose

Because empires will rise and fall
like tides and I’ll live through it all

But it won’t mean a thing
without you

credits

released February 2, 2023
Written by Max Nguyen Russell
Produced by Cowboy Malfoy
Mastered by Gabi Gabriella
Performed by Cowboy Malfoy and Sofia Moreno (Violin)

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Cowboy Malfoy New York, New York

The world is inundated with a narrative in popular media: 'Be Yourself', 'be proud of who you are'. What if I don't know who or what I am?

I am a trans non-binary individual living with ADHD and OCD. I am a reflection of the world as much as my music is a reflection of me.

Cowboy Malfoy is a testament to that. ... more

discography

Rockabye

Apr 2024
Head Start

Oct 2023
How I'd Kill

Feb 2023
Want it Bad

Jul 2022
Precious to Me

May 2021
Notice

Mar 2021

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